WHY ME? ... WHY NOT ME?
For years I wondered WHY I suffered through some things. I asked God difficult questions. After all, I am a believer - or at least I am seeking to live a life pleasing before God. I repented from my sins. What gives - why me? I cannot begin to tell you how many times I asked God questions not realizing that God was actually answering my questions and I was so consumed with the problems that I did not even recognize it.
God gives his greatest struggles to his strongest soldiers. I now realize that I must have been strong enough to endure the adversity BUT the end result is to reach out my hand to help someone else. For YEARS I would have preferred ANYTHING than to admit that I had been the victim of domestic violence. People that meet me and take the time to know me look at me in awe not being able to believe that I had endured some of the things I tell them. There was only a small group of people that even know about my past. I kept this secret close to my heart heart on PURPOSE.
The older I got, the more I understood that it is my pain that has the ability to heal someone else. i am NOT an authority on everything because I myself am still learning. I will tell you THIS with great confidence, I understand the audience that visits "Deborah's Freedom". Domestic abuse, I have been there. Feeling helpless, yep I have been there. "Baby Daddy" dram, been there. Day care expenses when my salary was just above the poverty line - you got it - I have been there. Going to churches for help and getting hurt worse in the process - I have been there too.
So much has happened, I wrote a book. Even in the journey of writing a book, it does not encompass all that I have been through. The comments and inbox messages have given me the confidence that I am on track with God's purpose for my life. I don't know all of the pieces to this great puzzle but what I do know is that YOU need to get to know me. Know my journey and see how close it is to yours. YOU ARE NOT ALONE BECAUSE I SURVIVED WHAT YOU ARE GOING THROUGH RIGHT NOW.
I cannot fix your problems but I can assure you that I have compassion for you. I cannot TELL you what to do - I can only let you know what worked for me. Knowing that you are not alone is the first key.
Why me. Why not me.
I understand.
God gives his greatest struggles to his strongest soldiers. I now realize that I must have been strong enough to endure the adversity BUT the end result is to reach out my hand to help someone else. For YEARS I would have preferred ANYTHING than to admit that I had been the victim of domestic violence. People that meet me and take the time to know me look at me in awe not being able to believe that I had endured some of the things I tell them. There was only a small group of people that even know about my past. I kept this secret close to my heart heart on PURPOSE.
The older I got, the more I understood that it is my pain that has the ability to heal someone else. i am NOT an authority on everything because I myself am still learning. I will tell you THIS with great confidence, I understand the audience that visits "Deborah's Freedom". Domestic abuse, I have been there. Feeling helpless, yep I have been there. "Baby Daddy" dram, been there. Day care expenses when my salary was just above the poverty line - you got it - I have been there. Going to churches for help and getting hurt worse in the process - I have been there too.
So much has happened, I wrote a book. Even in the journey of writing a book, it does not encompass all that I have been through. The comments and inbox messages have given me the confidence that I am on track with God's purpose for my life. I don't know all of the pieces to this great puzzle but what I do know is that YOU need to get to know me. Know my journey and see how close it is to yours. YOU ARE NOT ALONE BECAUSE I SURVIVED WHAT YOU ARE GOING THROUGH RIGHT NOW.
I cannot fix your problems but I can assure you that I have compassion for you. I cannot TELL you what to do - I can only let you know what worked for me. Knowing that you are not alone is the first key.
Why me. Why not me.
I understand.
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