Pain Has a Purpose
Bishop Jakes has preached to millions and has a most prolific call to the ministry. For today, I read something that seemed to have stuck with me - "Your trauma is your treasure". Heck, I NEVER looked at pain through the lens of pain being of any value to me - or to anyone else. I am older now. I have been through some bad things now. I understand now.
Had I not suffered some of the issues I had - I would have NEVER had the wisdom I have now. I used to want to be the person I used to be. That person I "used" to be was different from the woman I am now. I "used" to believe I was strong. I "used" to believe I could conquer the world. I "used" to believe that no one could hurt my heart. Oh, but time and experience has made me even stronger than the woman I "used" to be.
So often, I hear people say, "If I knew back then what I k now now". For some, this may hold great truths. For me, I have graduated from who I "used" to be in ways I can not imagine to tell you. Yes, the pain and trauma hit me in the gut. Yes, I cried a boatload of tears BUT, I am stronger and I am wiser. Even if I knew "back then what I know now" - I am not sure if I would have changed my past. It was the guidance of my King of Kings that brought me to this place in my life. I am at a settled and mature place. I can "sense" the heart of people. If I talk to people for any length of time, I can "sense" what they are "really" saying through what they are forming their lips to say. Is it their "aura"? ... I don't know but I can "sense" things I took for granted more acutely.
Perhaps my pain opened up a window in my soul to become more compassionate. I have stopped trying to over analyze who I am versus who I used to be.
I just know - without a doubt - I am a "new and improved" version of who I "used" to be - and I attribute it to the pain I have endured. I don't argue with people - I give a calm "OK". When something is true - it is beyond becoming disagreeable. Truth stands - no matter what. The tone of my voice has a decadence of tone that reflects the confidence I now have. I refuse to "yell". Yelling does not magnify the point - sometimes it just proves to be unnecessary. I don't repeat things a lot. I am a better listener. I pay careful attention to people and their "body language". Guess I can say, I am more observant in the overall sense of my being. Pain WILL silence you. Some things are too painful to form your lips to even speak about.
EVERYONE has a different way of processing their pain and their trauma. I have chosen to grow from my pain. So here I am, talking to YOU. May you grow from every situation I have been delivered from.
I used to get angry when people would not give me a concrete road map to escape my burdens. Now, I have learned, it was good for me to suffer some of my afflictions. Without them I would not have grown to be this incredible woman I am today.
We grow together. The pain is a process. Embrace the process so that you will not prolong the process.
Your life is waiting for you.
Had I not suffered some of the issues I had - I would have NEVER had the wisdom I have now. I used to want to be the person I used to be. That person I "used" to be was different from the woman I am now. I "used" to believe I was strong. I "used" to believe I could conquer the world. I "used" to believe that no one could hurt my heart. Oh, but time and experience has made me even stronger than the woman I "used" to be.
So often, I hear people say, "If I knew back then what I k now now". For some, this may hold great truths. For me, I have graduated from who I "used" to be in ways I can not imagine to tell you. Yes, the pain and trauma hit me in the gut. Yes, I cried a boatload of tears BUT, I am stronger and I am wiser. Even if I knew "back then what I know now" - I am not sure if I would have changed my past. It was the guidance of my King of Kings that brought me to this place in my life. I am at a settled and mature place. I can "sense" the heart of people. If I talk to people for any length of time, I can "sense" what they are "really" saying through what they are forming their lips to say. Is it their "aura"? ... I don't know but I can "sense" things I took for granted more acutely.
Perhaps my pain opened up a window in my soul to become more compassionate. I have stopped trying to over analyze who I am versus who I used to be.
I just know - without a doubt - I am a "new and improved" version of who I "used" to be - and I attribute it to the pain I have endured. I don't argue with people - I give a calm "OK". When something is true - it is beyond becoming disagreeable. Truth stands - no matter what. The tone of my voice has a decadence of tone that reflects the confidence I now have. I refuse to "yell". Yelling does not magnify the point - sometimes it just proves to be unnecessary. I don't repeat things a lot. I am a better listener. I pay careful attention to people and their "body language". Guess I can say, I am more observant in the overall sense of my being. Pain WILL silence you. Some things are too painful to form your lips to even speak about.
EVERYONE has a different way of processing their pain and their trauma. I have chosen to grow from my pain. So here I am, talking to YOU. May you grow from every situation I have been delivered from.
I used to get angry when people would not give me a concrete road map to escape my burdens. Now, I have learned, it was good for me to suffer some of my afflictions. Without them I would not have grown to be this incredible woman I am today.
We grow together. The pain is a process. Embrace the process so that you will not prolong the process.
Your life is waiting for you.
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