GROWTH
In this ever changing and awfully busy atmosphere of existing we live in, sometimes it feels like you have to "schedule" time to do things that should come naturally to us. The rich information super highway we ride everyday can consume something that is so special - and yet to limited to us - that thing called TIME. Time is such an irreplaceable element and it is so easy to take it for granted until it is gone.
Have you ever had an item of importance to do for the day and did everything EXCEPT that one thing and ended the day TIRED and you still did not get IT done? I know I have. I have learned to be purposeful in my actions and choosing to grow past poor decisions and mistakes. I am taking the instances that I am not so proud of and making them learning moments. I ask myself - "no what did you learn from that"? The answer is CLEAR - but sometimes (myself included) sometimes, we don't wanna look reality of the choices we have made in the face. The devil did NOT make us do some of the things we give him credit for. We unashamedly threw our conscious to the wind and did "IT". My "IT" may be different from your "IT" but we all did "IT". Because we have a forgiving God - it is easy to become a revolving door at the throne room of mercy - but at what point do we just stop negative behavior? It is a point where we MUST become accountable for what WE do - and NOT do them any more. Is it easy to break something that has become a HABIT? NO. It is difficult but certainly not impossible.
I have begin the daunting task of releasing myself of things and people that are not authentic to my further destinations in life. Painful as it is - it is a reality check... a very necessary one for me. My first victory is over PEOPLE. I used to accept things that were not authentic to the woman I am on the inside because I did not want to "hurt the feelings" of anybody - at the shear expense of losing myself and absorbing the agony of THEIR actions because I gave them space in my life. I have set boundaries for my life now. It is refreshing to CHOOSE what I will take - and what I will not allow.
I am not nearly as "moved" by what people say and do anymore.
Yeah, I fell back and watched them lose ME.
WOW, growth!
Have you ever had an item of importance to do for the day and did everything EXCEPT that one thing and ended the day TIRED and you still did not get IT done? I know I have. I have learned to be purposeful in my actions and choosing to grow past poor decisions and mistakes. I am taking the instances that I am not so proud of and making them learning moments. I ask myself - "no what did you learn from that"? The answer is CLEAR - but sometimes (myself included) sometimes, we don't wanna look reality of the choices we have made in the face. The devil did NOT make us do some of the things we give him credit for. We unashamedly threw our conscious to the wind and did "IT". My "IT" may be different from your "IT" but we all did "IT". Because we have a forgiving God - it is easy to become a revolving door at the throne room of mercy - but at what point do we just stop negative behavior? It is a point where we MUST become accountable for what WE do - and NOT do them any more. Is it easy to break something that has become a HABIT? NO. It is difficult but certainly not impossible.
I have begin the daunting task of releasing myself of things and people that are not authentic to my further destinations in life. Painful as it is - it is a reality check... a very necessary one for me. My first victory is over PEOPLE. I used to accept things that were not authentic to the woman I am on the inside because I did not want to "hurt the feelings" of anybody - at the shear expense of losing myself and absorbing the agony of THEIR actions because I gave them space in my life. I have set boundaries for my life now. It is refreshing to CHOOSE what I will take - and what I will not allow.
I am not nearly as "moved" by what people say and do anymore.
Yeah, I fell back and watched them lose ME.
WOW, growth!
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